Saturday, March 31, 2012


so all week i've been recovering from surgery I had on was a long awaited thing that was happening.because I just knew He could do anything and He did it.I am very grateful not for the things He does as if He were some kind of magic genie,because He's not and it doesnt work that way.Im grateful that He saved this wretched life and restored,redeemed and healed it.everything else is a bonus..

So this morning i wake up to a few flaws in my truck but not gonna stress it its just a minor leak.fill up the radiator screw the cap back on and head to an outreach in Fort Worth.we are washing the feet of Vietnam Vets. as Jesus wshed the feet of His disciples we want to be like Jesus so we set out to Serve the soldiers that once served this country..

for most veterans who served during Vietnam as if the war was hard enough the real challenge each one had was coming home.the troops sent out were not welcomed when they came home.infact many were spit on and disgraced because they chose one day to join the military and serve for this country...though we can never change the past and everything that was done to them was wrong.we can still honor those men today.for me it is an honor to be able to give back to them with what I can for the road they chose to walk out and risk there lives for this matter if our government was right or wrong.its the soldiers who do the real work .

as we washed the feet of the Vets one was named Willy,he actually was a preacher before he joined the U.S. Army, another's name in bobby and there's another i met who goes by Andy Anderson. these men were all about in there 60-70's all full of life and smiling from ear to ear.all of them could have a number of things going wrong that day but they all choose to find the good and not complain about there situations,but instead smile and laugh and share there stories with we get to listen and pray over was an amazing time.

very thankful to have the opportunity to serve the ones who served us first.

Thursday, March 29, 2012


Its been ages since i've actually cried because something hurt.

They said weds would be the worst days and that Healing would start after minute your fine you think your getting feel better then all of a sudden you feel sick,sick to your stomach,your head begins to pound.your 2 hours in when you realize the last painkiller you just took stopped remember work that they did.the grinding and cutting and drilling and it doesn't help in fact why did u remember those things.Of all the things i wish would pass quickly this would of been #1...
it didn't time seem to of stood still as Big ole crocodile tears fell out of the tear ducts of my eyes as I've experienced the worse pain of my life.  Never had I remembered being anything so painful. Both upper And lower jaw hurt plus a headache so huge that the slightest little move would send cold  chills down my spine and back up with excruciating pain. It was two hours before i could take another painkiller as I laid curled up into a ball on my bed feeling like I was taking on a fever as well. Close my eyes for ten minutes feels like an hour or two has gone by.
Then get woken up nope its only been 10 mins.try to go back to sleep,burning red hot the room temp felt like it went up.getting hotter each minute.start calling out for the Lord only to pass out... sweet i'm a sleep it doesn't hurt so much when your sleeping... and we are awake could it be time? as i stare at the painkillers wondering if i should take one or thinking what if i overdose? oh well lets just take one and try to get in that one spot where it was good.
Then big ole crocodile tears come again as every slightest move hurt,head pounding while in the back of your mind something says "ah u didn't count the cost to this"" and now ur suffering" thanx a lot way to kick a man while his down. Begin to cry out for Jesus again and end up passing out...finally 4hours later it hurts but not like earlier.i can deffinatly say that I never want to go threw something like this ever again. We can just mark this as one of the worst expirences of my life!
The pain of the headache is still with me today,but not as strong as it was last night.I pray i get better sooner.don"t have a choice i have to walk this out. :-(

there were so many people that popped in my mind as if it weren't so late i would of stretched out for a text for a prayer