a little hard

Its the hard days that allow us to cling to Jesus more then every other day.....

I tell me self this over and over throughout this past year,every time this was said either a hard day just passed or it was just around the corner.at first it was a struggle to keep in mind to cling to Him,to smile and press on.as the hard days kept coming the more i tried to keep this in mind but many times i failed.
Then one morning while driving into work He says i love you!I'll never leave nor forsake you! I am there with you,He tells me all these wonderful and comforting things...moments later i say I know Lord I know You are here with me.at that time everything was going great then it dawned on me to ask why or if something was about to get hard.Yes i hear. its going to be hard but do not fear for I am with with...later that day i was in life group when my friend Ash and I got into this conversation of how God years before had told them that Things are going to be hard.harder then they could imagine but not to fear for He is with them...
after hearing His story i remembered what Jesus had talked with me about in the morning and thought wow Our God cares so much about us that He will or would let us know when something comes up.....

a month or 2 had passed and then the hard He spoke of began.it was painful and hurt.day in and day out non stop abuse.verbal all work day long while having things thrown at you and your friends pulling the judas move.everyone taking what was a blessing from Him twisting it into something wrong and so much more.It test my reactions,feelings,and faith in Him,faith in believing and share Jesus with them.cried almost ever night because in my mind it was happening for the 3rd time...yes I had been there before but this time was different there was no giving up or giving in.I cant say that it was a breeze and I floated on threw.no it was difficult and it sucked!

All for good reason though I'm sure...

Today was the first hard day of the year.It was different this time though.crazy things happened right before i left for work.then not to mention was 30mins late.it was freezing and the boss is like sorry Kai but u gotta be outside today.go clean up the lot again. so I go to start the bobcat but it doesn't start.try for 20mins then finally it starts so leave it to sit while it warms up.10mins later i walk pass it and notice its spewing oil.out the back and on to the new concrete...lol Wonderful my boss is gonna kill me,so i move it to somewhere it can leak and go look for stuff to clean it up.instead of hiding it and be like i don't know how that oil got there..yea I told him so we got another cat out there.this happens to be are lucky day this one is not leaking oil but squirting hydrollic fluid every where....Sigh....really.other things went wrong but still all i could do is pray for other people and people around the world and in Uganda.lunch time rolled around I decided to call my sister and oh yea wish her a happy birthday i totally forgot it was yesterday...we talked for a bit,then I said you know I'm having kind of a bad day,but no matter what happens next I cant help but to Praise God.

with the first hard day under my belt I only hope to have the same if not better attitude for when an even harder day comes along...We shouldn't only be able to praise Him for the good days when everything falls in to place and is running smoothly.but we should be able to say you know I'm having a bad day or things aren't working out right but I choose to praise Him anyhow.