Its been ages since i've actually cried because something hurt.
said weds would be the worst days and that Healing would start after
it...one minute your fine you think your getting better.you feel better
then all of a sudden you feel sick,sick to your stomach,your head
begins to pound.your 2 hours in when you realize the last painkiller
you just took stopped working..you remember work that they did.the
grinding and cutting and drilling and it doesn't help in fact why did u
remember those things.Of all the things i wish would pass quickly this
would of been #1...
it didn't time seem to of stood still as Big
ole crocodile tears fell out of the tear ducts of my eyes as I've
experienced the worse pain of my life. Never had I remembered being
anything so painful. Both upper And lower jaw hurt plus a headache so
huge that the slightest little move would send cold chills down my
spine and back up with excruciating pain. It was two hours before i
could take another painkiller as I laid curled up into a ball on my bed
feeling like I was taking on a fever as well. Close my eyes for ten
minutes feels like an hour or two has gone by.
Then get woken up
nope its only been 10 mins.try to go back to sleep,burning red hot the
room temp felt like it went up.getting hotter each minute.start calling
out for the Lord only to pass out... sweet i'm a sleep it doesn't hurt
so much when your sleeping... and we are awake could it be time? as i
stare at the painkillers wondering if i should take one or thinking what
if i overdose? oh well lets just take one and try to get in that one
spot where it was good.
Then big ole crocodile tears come again
as every slightest move hurt,head pounding while in the back of your
mind something says "ah u didn't count the cost to this"" and now ur
suffering" thanx a lot way to kick a man while his down. Begin to cry
out for Jesus again and end up passing out...finally 4hours later it
hurts but not like earlier.i can deffinatly say that I never want to go
threw something like this ever again. We can just mark this as one of
the worst expirences of my life!
The pain of the headache is still
with me today,but not as strong as it was last night.I pray i get
better sooner.don"t have a choice i have to walk this out. :-(
there were so many people that popped in my mind as if it weren't so late i would of stretched out for a text for a prayer