Monday, August 13, 2012

Outreach Ft.Worth

on Saturday we went to Unity park in downtown Fort Worth.the park is right off of east Lancaster. where a lot of the cities homeless people live,every 2nd saturday of the month is when we go out there to help,it is the one Saturday when they have the least amount of help.different churches and groups come out. This saturday we brought drinks as usual and home made cookies,sometimes we bring or cook food hamburger and hot dogs.
when we arrived I had a huge headache and after helping set up some tables the headache went away but just as TJ and the guys went to set up flag football my foot began to hurt so bad i knew i couldn't play football so i just chilled for a bit.finally I saw a man sitting in a wheel chair under the shade of a giant tree behind us..This man had no legs and was an elderly man.but that's not the reason I decided to get up and go walk over to him. to be honest im not sure why but it was better then "watching the drinks"at the table.
never really know how to break the ice or what to say.but I started with a Hi Sir mind if I come chill with you? Sure he said as his eyes were fixed on something over yonder,kneeling down next to his chair  I says well my name is Samuel,he said his name was Charles.well it a pleasure to meet ya Mr.Charles.He says like wise Sam. as i sat there i felt like what the flip am i doing this is kind of awkward what do i say next? the silence is thick so i began to ask questions like where ya from and how long ya been here.He said he's from Tennessee and he's been here for 30+ years,He likes it here.I asked a few more questions then He said with a loud stern, hard voice I DON'T DO Questions! you said can you chill,i said sure then you start asking question I don't do questions! 
ok ok sorry man imma ask u 1 more question then I'll go he got this look like "man if i had legs I'd kick you in your head"... so I says can a pray with you?
it looked like it threw him off and so he said why sure I would love me some prayer,you never can get to much of it.

So I prayed a simple but heart felt prayer just for overwhelming Joy and  more love in His heart.God's provision and some other things. after I said Amen, He said man all those things you just prayed God has already given them to me.I thought well never hurts to receive more for His goodness.( i might of said that out loud cant remember) but Mr.Charles goes on to say How you don't even know.God is and has been providing for me for 61 years weather i liked it or not and only God will keep continuing to provided for come with your questions asking about me..

I don't wanna talk about me and besides you don't know me and i don't know you.and another thing "It is NOT about me or you its only about Him."I agree with him and he begins to talk more and thing you know he is talking about the weather,the area,the people of back then and now a days,He talks of life and the Greatness of was so good.I says well Mr. Charles God is good! ALL the time.even when we don't feel or look good He is still good  and good to us all the time.with that Mr. Charles went on talking some more. and withe further this conversation went the more you could actually see the Joy of the Lord fall on this man.His eyes lit up and his smile grew bigger and bigger,next came laughter.

I could actually see Jesus in and threw this man.sitting there getting excited for the things that His father is doing and has done.

Mr.Charles says you know there is only three things and God supplies all three to everyone all the time.
 first is can make or find shelter anywhere. you see that tables there? Yes i said. he says well if its rain and u want some cover or if its hot and the sun is beating down on ya and ya need some shade.there is a table get under it! use the things God has left for you around you.I can make a place to sleep anywhere and have shelter to.under that over hang there in these tress and brush.I don't need a big ol fancy house to live in and pay people money for electric or water. God provides everything i need right where I am is clothing..look around we all have it we are all wearing clothes."man in all my 61 years Never have I seen someone going streaking down these streets. never have i see one person butt naked begging for clothes on the side of the road." 
Because God provides!
next is Food as he taps a plastic bag hanging from his wheel chair God always provides me with food.and drinks, man if you where to say to me Mr.Charles can i get you a coke? or if I was to see you and Say Hey could you get me a lets say you go and come back.before you return i would have had many cokes by that time.why? because God provides.
Man I talk to God all day long He is the only one who knows me best.and I know Him.He provides things that you may not even believe me but He does and He will keep on doing.I dont need no one to help me and no one can help me like God can!

as Mr Charles talk and I listened the other church began to set up there tables behind us and more people with there kids came to help do what they were doing.but as I sat on my knees listening to this man speak it felt as if time lost all feeling of its self and there was no time.Mr.Charles went on to talk about the Ozone,the future,how we are killing this earth,the future earth for our kids or my generations kids when they get older,how many animals and plants are extinct and how maybe in the future kids of those day wont even get to know what a tree is.only see pictures in books or old family photos.

lightening bugs! he says strongly.ah fireflies Mr.Charles? Yes fireflies now tell me whens the last time you saw one of them? thinking back well shoot its been a while.he says exactly! where have they gone? no one knows,hopefully far far away from us.
He names some other things and talks more on it.that switches subjects and says its only gonna get hotter! each year get worse then the one that has passed.not only here but everywhere will keep getting hotter.he shares ideas of earthquakes and meteors."not in a crazy end of the world were all gonna die way" but just theories that he has.

Mr. Charles has so much passion and excitement when he spoke about the glories and wonders,and provision of the LORD was incredible!
He stops and said a few time very briefly during different  times of his  sharing"man now im all worked up".
 but towards the end he say you know this is all because of you he had a serious look on his face if you didn't know him you would say he looked like he was about to bite my head off.he said I just wanted to sit hear and chill not talk or do anything but you just had to come with your question! then i said I don't do questions i meant it to.don't ever come to this park its only my second time but boy you as he pointed his finger at me got me all fired up about this....I didn't know what to expect he was gonna say next i thought maybe he really was mad that he got all fired up.who knows.but then Mr.Charles said man it has all been worth it.thank you for coming over and talking to me.and thank you i said for talking and sharing with me.he laughed and smiled and laughed some more then has if he had legs he stomped his feet and jumped for joy.he was so so happy and overfilled with was such a great time to be able to meet and hear this guy.

wrapping up its getting real close to lunch time and the lines are forming he says we better move before all these crazies run me and u over.but before i let you go I just want to say one more thing.he shared it then he says boy I tell you i have had a lot of fun talking with you! and i agreed and said well i' enjoyed talking with you.he laughed and said you talking? hell i did all the talking you just sat there and listened.God bless you my boy your a good we moved out of the way and more into the back he said imma let you go you've been sitting here long enough i dont wanna take up any ore of your time I thank you for listening to me.No the pleasure was all mine as i sat back down.can i get you something to drink.we have water and soda he said well...nah let me get some water.walked over to the coolers to pull out a cold bottle of water and next thing you know i was sitting by him listening to him share more goodness.he says you know everything grows up! 
we had started to talk about plants and right when he said that I got a picture in my mind and a plant growing up towards the heavens not because the plant needed sunlight but because the Plant wanted to stretch its arms or branches towards the heaven and reach out for its maker show him the beauty the He created and give Him glory.
we hovered on plants topic for a bit then switched a few time untill we got to a place where i had the opportunity to share with him what Great things God has done for me.the story of the teeth journey and the word God gave me to stand was Matt 6:25 do not worry of the things of this world.where u will sleep or what you will eat or what you will wear....Mr.Charles laughed and laughed and said see food clothes,shelter. God is Good! All the time!

In the very end Mr.Charles says you know what I could get water every where all the time.maybe i should of went with a soda...i \i head to the coolers and see what i can get him.what do u know it happened to be a coke.bring it back i says well it turns out that God has provided you with another coke
"He laughed and said yes! Yes he sure did."
 thank you for going to get it from over there. till we meet again and best believe we will met again. as he rode away.

Matthew 6-25-31
25 “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
28 “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31 “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Day 1 June 18,2012

well really it is more like Day 3 or 4 because we had to travel to get where we were. Anyways so that morning the orphanage team got to go Amani baby cottage,and Home sweet home.The Medical team went somewhere but alas us Outreach team members went straight to the Hotel's conference room. We worked on a drama most of the day called Rag Man(you can find it on YouTube) next we spent a few short hours practicing a few other skits as Ice breakers to the crowds.

after many many hours of doing all of this we came to a more serious point were we formed a circle and share something about us.our leader started and took it deep into past hurts and pains that The LORD has healed her from.when she finished she said "you dont have to go to the depths you can share anything you want to" But apparently nobody cared about that and we all opened our hearts and shared our deepest secrets and hurts that we wouldn't normally share with just anyone....ok maybe I would!
no i think by doing this we all got a deeper connection to one another it was Sooo Tight!

(if i ever get a chance to lead an outreach or a project overseas or in the mission field that is an extended amount of time I believe I'll be doing something like what we did in Uganda)(it just connected everyone)

after all that its a bit of a blur what we did.maybe practiced some more.until the teams came back and shared their stories then we went out to eat and prepared for the next day.

Monday, July 2, 2012

We went to Africa

on June 14th 2012 we started are adventure from different parts of the U.S. and even Canada. half of us to New York and the other Half to L.A. on the 15th. to start a very long journey.For the NY team we stopped in at Brussels,Belgium for a layover to plane transfer for a short time but then it felt like forever!
We then hopped on the next plane to stop in Rowanda then on to Entebbe,Uganda.

after a bus ride we arrived at the hotel where we would stay for the night and wait for Team L.A. to arrive at the airport.just getting to this point in time seemed like a great adventure already.except the part of being crammed like sardines on the second flight..Usually the Aisle seat is good but not on the plane we had.If your tall it sucks because every aisle seat has a big black box under it that does not move making long legs not fun.though I didnt epect the plane ride to be fun,but this was ridiculous!

anyhow here at the hotel we unloaded the buses and dragged our luggage to our rooms.i remember our room was on the 3rd yay

the next morning I awoke thinking I was an hour early for breakfast and when my room mate came up and said are u ready yet? everyone is down stairs already. Already I said.but Its an hour early for breakfast...He looked at me like i was crazy and said so you ready.yea im i'll help you with your bags sam.thanks i replied.

down in the lobby mostly everybody has eaten i decide its a good time to go eat.only to find out halfway through breakfast that i was not early that morning but indeed i was an hour late...apparently my phone did not switch over to local time.hahaha...oops.

after breakfast we all gathered in the meeting room for our 1st worship session and introduction to this trip...when a beautiful time of worshiping our Savior was over Susan our team leader says I feel like there is a spirit of fear about. are any of you feeling this? yes we all the time I did not see it until 3 days later when it was apparent to me that I was in a constant spiritual battle.
after rebuking the enemy and the spirit of fear we got down to logistics.
Susan asked if anyone would be willing to switch to the medical hand among others went up.she looked at me and said no absolutely not... at first i thought she was joking..but alas she was not...I was to stay on Outreach team.which is cool

we had 3 teams Outreach,Orphanage,and Medical

next we got right down to business when Susan say ok bring all the PB&J you brought its time to make the first set of sandwiches

so 6 of us including myself got right into it.the girls spreading the Jelly started by spreading it lightly as to think we dont want to run out...Susan came by and said Oh No "Let the jelly flow" soak the bread in jelly and be plentiful with the Peanut butter!
 we had 20 jars of each and 22 of each on the way!
after the sandwiches were made and packaged we loaded our buses with Bags and water then headed off to the Airport to meet and pick up Team L.A.

while we wait for them to arrive the girls decide lets all play a game.i can honestly say i have no idea what the game was called but everyone had to pick a animal and make up a sign for it then when that was complete we start clapping,next one person would called out there animal and do there sign followed by doing the sign of someone else.that person would do thiers and call someone elses was an interesting Barrett decided that this game was weak so he showed us his game called Waatah...don't ask cause im not explaining was funny though.after a few hours our other half had arrived! we all greeted eachother help them load their bags and we were off for a 2hr ride to our first home in Jinja,Uganda

all along the way their were lots of things to see,pictures to be taken and many places where we were not allowed to take pictures because if we were caught the Ugandan Police/military could confinscate our camera's
moments later we had arrived at the Paradise on the Nile hotel.where no matter how tired we were that local security insisted that we form to lines male and female to be searched for weapons and other things that would be a threat to other hotel i believe they wanted to search our bags. but dont think they did.

so we checked in got our room assignments and who we would be rooming with for the next week...that took Foooooorrrrrrreeeeevvvvveeeeerrrrrrr!
we all went to our rooms breifly and head down to the "storage room" where we had our very first team meeting as a whole group.1st we start as every meeting should always meet byt praising our God and King! next on to introductions....with introduction out of the was done to business and scheduling for the week.we split up into our 3 teams and did a little work before we all headed to some very much needed rest.

Big day tomorrow!
(to be continued)

Monday, June 4, 2012

Gift within a Gift

He Is Faithful to keep His promises and take care of His kids even when we don't think we need or expect it.
 4th part of this story:

Second week of January rolled around we get into Baylor and say well we got it all and are ready to start.we go in and they are all excited so they sit me down and take one final set of impressions and that's when Dr. G was like OK Samuel I need the dentures back...
ah what i said.yea did you not bring them i told them that when they call to confirm your appointment to make sure to tell you to bring them...
OK so nobody told me but I had that feeling they would be asking for them..problem I know i have them I just don't know where i put them. Dr.Gonzales looked at my like they should be in your mouth were i last left them.I thought well they didn't fit so i stopped using them.He said look we will take these impressions then set up your next 4 or 5 appointments,I need you to go home and find them and bring them to me asap.there is so much information on the dentures they are very important to me.So Leilani says don't worry just go home get them and bring em here.if you cant find them that's what all these appointments or for.we will just build another one.besides your sure you didn't leave them in Hawaii right?
oh snap maybe i did...I had gone to Hawaii that past June to help my parents move and they could of gotten lost or left behind in the move...
 I spent the rest of the day wondering were they were. and the next day my mom calls and says son I have your dentures please come and get them...Praise God Praise God i yelled.So that next Monday i brought them up.waited 2 weeks and went to my next appointment where they told me that after surgery they will screw in the bottom and give me a denture to wear on the top for the next 8-9months. because they don't want the implants to fall out or something..
the fun part come next waiting 2 months for march 23rd to was the longest wait it felt like.and the weekend before the operation VII was having a retreat om how to study God's word I figured i could go to that so that after surgery i had something to do.3weeks leading up to the surgery fear came in,back and forth also nervousness I was becoming scared of the little doses when it came to the last day of the retreat we were sitting down for lunch \before we would head home.and a friend of mine gave me this eye she was all your excited right.i looked across the table and said no well yes,,well I'm more nervous then anything.then she said did you tell him? as she pointed to our pastor of VII.i said NO,no i didn't..

(this story isn't a story that i go around telling everyone,I love to share it but for me to do so it requires a lot of time.+ it can be used in great ways to encourage people but not everyone is willing to i wait for the opportune moments)

just then Pastor Steven said tell me what? I said oh um well I then Jen jumps in and says he is having surgery,Pastor Steven said yea he said he was but i thought in a few days maybe a week..I said nope its bright and early tomorrow morning lasting all day..Pastor Steven said OK wait surgery for what.then it was all over because Jen said something I had not choice but to share with the entire table the goodness,Faithfulness and kindness of God,how he can bring hope and restoration..knowing that we didn't have a lot of time i had to shorten my extra long story into half the time. I love to share this story when I can so i began to speak.and as I'm telling the story Jen who has heard it many times her eyes lit up as they did the first time she heard it.I could tell that she gets something out of it every time she hears well as everyone in the table had this blown away look on them.Then about half way through pastor Steven says OK wait wait what does this have to do with the surgery tomorrow and when are we getting to that part..I said shortly we are getting there shortly.oh OK cool he said.
so I share the beginning middle of this story up to were we are now in this journey.was like tomorrow I'm going into all day surgery were they will grind down like 1 1/2inch of my lower jaw because i have to much jawbone down there then set 4 implants on the top and 4 on the bottom then screw in the bottom teeth which are temporary and give me a denture for the top that I'll wear for 8-9 months before they give me the real permanent implants for both top and bottom.
Pastor Steven was blown away by this story as was the whole table.everyone became excited and said it was awesome then Steven was like so your gonna be like this supper cool model smiling huge smiles showing off your teeth to everyone! I laughed a bit and said no,no i wont I'll just be me with teeth i said, he walked over a prayed for peace over me.instantly i felt peace again. after that my friends wife came over and said about half with threw my story she realized i was giving God the glory by sharing it the way that i do.and that it was cool she thanked me for sharing as did some others.

the next morning was like whoa!

on the drive up a thought for a split second on how cool would it be to have a screw in temp for the top.quickly dismissed the thought because i knew the plans were set.this is the way its going down and so just be happy.
we get to the hospital and go to pay when they say we cant withdraw the 15 thousand so we need another form of payment or we will reschedule..What! half awake but mostly asleep I thought great,the Secretary was like here try this this and that .I call my sister who is the card holder to get a busy signal.then i began to pray.the secretaries were trying all different ways to get the card to work.after i prayed i kinda just sat there,then my aunt jumps up and says look give him his card will put it on my card and I'll deal with her later..we know that the longer he is out here the longer we have to stay lets move this along...
WOW if my aunt had not come then maybe it wouldn't have gone down like that.Thank You Jesus for sending the right people.
so my nurse comes to get me and take me to the surgery place.she looks as if shes having a really bad day.I so i ask hard morning? she says yes! i say awe that's to bad.then the Holy Spirit drops in and says pray for her! I say OK!
miss would you mind if i pray for you? She said What! i said well do u believe in God? she says yes absolutely! well then can i pray for you.she was taken back by the fact that a complete stranger offered to pray for her i i began to pray that the Lord would restore her health and bring healing to were it was needed.
When i finished my doctors walked in and we began the surgery first by having me sign a paper that gave them permission to film the surgery or not.In my mind i thought absolutely i mean they are helping me why cant i help them which will in turn help others...sometime during the middle of it i woke up and tried to pull the IV out of my hand twice so they strapped my arm down.a woke up several of times and quickly put back under. i remember them telling me to open wider and stuff.but in the end I could feel the vibrations from the drill drilling in the last two implants it wasn't fun and i tried so hard to go back to sleep..
but no dice they had began the process of waking me up.during the last 2 implants i could hear Dr.Schow talking to me and saying how well the procedure went so well.
later the nurse came to take me to a different room to get the teeth  installed as i laid there Dr.G and Leilani came over and said I heard it was a success! We are so happy for you now open up and let me see Samuel. so i opened and they did what they for me i was supper groggy and don't remember a lot of it,except my whole face was numb and they began to give me more drugs like morphine! a little while later i heard them all talking and saying "well i think we should try it.It just might work", Leilani :"so doctor are we going to"...Dr,G:"Yes we are!" hand me the blah blah blah.I seriously don't know what he said right there ha ha ha.
Next thing i know is that they make another impression for the top using the same denture i assumed it would mold to the shape of it now.honestly i don't remember what was happening.all i knew is the my mouth was getting hot to the point of i could not stand it and began to squirm around flying my hands in the air trying to get someones attention.then the doctors turn around and said whats wrong.i point at my nose then mouth and being that i cant talk try to say it hot.He says what is it hot? i nodded yes.he said well let me see and stuck his finger in my mouth only to quickly remove it and say holy..That is hot Leilani get the water..there is that better? Yes i nodded and began to fall asleep.when they were done Dr.G said your aunt is coming with a smoothie it will help with the swelling.and after that we want you to go to sleep for a couple of hours and will wake you when its time.they left and as i looked around the room i saw a picture of some implants,earlier like when i first came into this room i had that thought come back to me on how cool would it be to get a screwed in upper..

My aunt appeared out of nowhere and handed me a smoothie.she began to talk i listened and reached for a pen and paper wrote down something and soon after passed out..they woke me up several hours later and fitted both top and bottom.2 hours later after tweaking there work he screwed in the lower and then screwed in the upper.and said smile i did, they said amazing it looks so good and so natural.they were very excited and so happy.right before letting me go they gave me more morphine and shoot me 7 more times with Novocaine.they let us go home with subscription.

I couldn't believe it.that God blessed me within the blessing.

the first 2 days were not so was the 3rd night the kicked my butt.I had just taken a painkiller when about an hour later this massive headache developed.i could do anything but lay in a ball  wrapped up in a couple of thick blanket because I was freezing cold and actually crying big ole alligator tears because the slightest move would send shivers down my spine and return with excruciating pain like Ive never felt before.know that i couldn't take another painkiller for 2 hours I began to pray and call out for God to help me pass out or take the pain away..just in that moment the enemy began to speak and speak of things to bring me down and get me to doubt God.Yes he comes to kick us when we are already down and at our weakest point..I knew that God was not to blame for this and that I would not die like it began to feel like i would.but to trust in Him even then...then next morning that headache was mostly gone but still there.after making a call to Baylor the doctor said to take some Aleve it will work with the painkillers I thought really? if only i had know this before i left the hospital.

a week later i told my sister what had happen and was excited she said well lets see the cost.i felt there was no extra cost and That God had blessed me,so we go for a check up a week later and Leilani begins to explain to Marylynn what sister was like OK so how much extra is this going to cost? and Leilani said nothing,"we were happy to do it"
so here's what they did in surgery they put 4 extra implants then instead of the denture for the top they put me to sleep while they made the upper temporary screw in.before me they always give the patient a temporary denture for the  allowing the implants to heal before putting any kind of pressure to them while screwing on the teeth.but in my case they felt really good about doing it this way...

I believe that God gave me the desire of my heart,the one i would not ask him for.and also gave them the confidence to step out and try something new.something they have never done before.which is screwing in the top piece right after surgery. blessed me and opened a door for them.
I  am basically Baylor's Guinna but I love it!

by screwing in the top and bottom i find it is easier to talk. after 2 weeks of constantly biting my tongue,cheeks and lip.this chewing with teeth thing is getting easier.some one asked my last night if I had restrictions on what i could eat..I said NOPE i can finally eat corn on the cob,almonds,and steak,apples,pineapple,I can eat anything that is hard or way to ice cream without getting a headache or chew on ice...these teeth are great they are made out of acrylic and are only temporary until 6-9 months from now..still don't know how well get 25k but I know its coming.

 its been a little longer then when i had hoped to post this. So here's an update. its been a couple months since the teeth have been installed now.and when i first wrote this i was biting my tongue,lip and cheek every day several sucked.but now that only happens once in a great while.these teeth feel so natural in the beginning it felt like something in my mouth but now its like they were there all along. went in for a check up before going on a mission trip and Dr. Schow was impressed by the way they are looking and how I've been taking good care of them.we talked for a bit and i said i could eat anything and everything from steak to almonds.He said wait wait wait.and No no no.because the implants need at least 6moths to fuse to the bone I am not allowed to eat hard things and tough meats.bummer just when i was getting to like almonds to...oh well i can wait.I've been waiting 4yrs whats another 4 months. anyways everything is great with these teeth I LOVE them and LOVE the One who provided me with them even more!
can't wait till Aug.that's the next appointment and when half is Due.

I Love my sister she is the one person who stood by my side and walked this out with me for 3 1/2 years.many ups and downs but always pressing me to do better and finding ways to make it work

Thursday, May 24, 2012

to give ur life away...

To give your life away....
what a strange thought to many, to some they do it everyday and to few its the only way there is to truly live there life...

We just got home from Guatemala,for most on the trip it was there first time on a mission trip or even out of the country. for others they have been to multiple countries and multiple missions.for me its my third time down with in 8mo.

Each time is different,each hold something special in it.this last time as the trip got closer the more I had thought to try and pull out of it.not cause i didn't want to go because i did really bad.I prefer this work over an actual day to day job.but because its getting closer to go to Uganda and i didn't know if I would have the money to pay for both trips...honestly i didn't and i knew it so if they didn't buy the tickets already i would of dropped out..unfortunately they did buy em and there no backing out(not that He would of let me).

(for the first couple of days I was like OK God why am i even here?)

the knowing of why it was important to for me to be there wouldn't set in until after I got home a week later.and looking back on all that happened is like whoa.I'm glad He didn't let me have my way in this situation. 
In the end one of the most impacting things that happen was this 17yr kid heard a piece of my testimony and chooses not to go the road i went.and the heart for Jesus in this kid is amazing just threw the little bit of stories that God is doing in his life and the lives of his friends at school is the kind of stuff we are praying for to happen!
If anything the whole trip was great!even if it didn't look like it at the time. we went in not know what to expect or even what we were going to do...much like the first 2 trips.
I think i prefer it this makes the trip much more exciting when you hop in and only expect God to do great things even if you have no idea what that would look like.

there were 3 teams 1 to build selves,1 to stretch razor wire around the compound and 1 to finish laying bricks of a wall,put on a roof and cement the floors..yes that was my team.we worked along side some amazing and very knowledgeable Mayans.the work went exactly as He planned it would and there were many surprises.
like when you need a hole drilled out but u don't have the right bit size and your neighborhood Lowe's or Home depot is not an option.(in fact the closest  thing to one is 3hours away).
so do what the Mayans do...use what you've we only have know what it works really well who would of thought...
every project we did had some home made tools and idea for some.

but everything that needed to be done got done.So here we are back from the trip and for a few of us we are about to set out tomorrow afternoon for another trip,This one is much closer to home.about 3hrs away.its memorial weekend.i can only imagine all the fun activities that will be had this weekend.but nothing will be as fun as what we are about to go do.

originally we were going down to this boys home to paint and tile their house while the boys and the guardians were away take a short break.we had planned to be done when they came home on Tues.but as it turns out I get a call from the leader Ryan saying well the trip is being cancelled...but we are going to try and go down to Mexico to help another friend...I was like OK I'm down to go anywhere Ryan.please tell me what happen though.
He said a very respectable Home improvement store said they were going to donate around 13,000 dollars in tile and paint but called this morning and said they will not be doing it.
in fact they stated that they can not do it.and that what they could do wont come for another 4-8weeks and it would only be around $2000. in donations........What!!! i was shocked! (I used to work for this company to not in that area though)(don't make a promise you cant keep)

what more disturbing is everybody at the boys home had been prepping the house for us to come.yes they ripped up all the carpet and did all the demo work so all we would have to do is come in paint and lay tile.
So Ryan called back a couple hours later to say well were not going to Mexico anymore there no way we can make $200. per person work over a 4day period so we are going to try and raise either the money for the paint ($1000.)or if anything go to every Home depot in the DFW area and ask for a donation...yea now that's what I'm taking about.straight up the enemy tried to derail our plans but we are gonna keep on keeping on and do what we can to get it done.ultimately my full trust is in God to provide what is needed to get this done....4hours later Ryan drops a post saying that the Home Depot in Southlake has donated 6 of the 35 gallons we need.I believe everything is going to work out and will still be heading out tomorrow afternoon..if not the i guess my friend who sponsored the $200. for me to go will get there money back..

now back to giving your life away.

my dear aunt for years has been saying work work work,save save save! and when you retire you can go on all the mission trip you want to...
OK that's good advice but its not for me...He called me to do construction for Him and not myself anymore.that much is clear to me.
I can't come to think that when I'm 65yrs old and ready to retire that i would be able to lift what i can lift or do what i can do now.
Yes i believe in waiting on God's timing and believe me I am.
but seriously we do not know how much time we have here. this place is only with that in mind i can no long waste anymore time(I've waste enough of His time already)
The time is now! I am alive right now so I must do what needs to be done in this moment...everyone is trying to save and build up for the future.I just want to live in the present and take it one step at a time.(now I'm not saying sell all your crap and move to a foreign country)because there are people in your area right now who need help.but for me and my house we will serve the every place He takes us to when He takes us there.

I am 32 yrs old,no kids and no wife,no debt and nothing to hold me back from choosing this life to live.upon returning home from Guatemala I found myself jobless big surprise there.i mean most people would be running a muck trying to figure out how the are going to i don't care.I know He will provide for me He's been doing a great job so why stop to worry about it now.
 to give your life away... doesn't seem like a horrible thing in fact it seem quite normal to me.all i can say is what is next LORD?

and for those of you reading this saying so u have no job and u cant support your own mission funding but you expect other people to pay your way for you?

No....No i don't expect anyone to pay anything for me.
I don't believe anyone should help me or expect it.i definitely don't deserve it and would much rather pay myself.
there's a certain pride when it come to saying "hey I need help for this trip" or this trip and that trip.
for this trip to the boys home and even Uganda Ive had to humble myself and kill that pride to say "hey I've got this chance to go over here and work for these people to help them but i don't have any money to go..can you help me?"

i guess all i can really do is keep asking until someone says yea sure I'll help.because i can not do this by myself or even by my own strength....

I never thought I'd be so eager to work for love.
a few years back i used to work Stone walls with my best friend Nuku and his dad Lapa.
Nuku and I would leave our homes and drive for hours just to help his dad when he needed help and we didn't have our own stone jobs to do. after working all week we go to get paid and Lapa would tell us..ah next week,i don't have any money right now.the next week would come and he would pay.this went on for a while so we would come and a lot of time not come.then at one point Lapa had offered to redo the walls around the church and other projects for the church.he would call us and we would come.we would stay at his house during the week and he would buy beer for me a lot.he knew he couldn't afford to pay us but he did what he could...In that season of my life while I was still on the run from the LORD and drinking heavily Lapa began to teach Nuku and I how to work for my opinion back then it was great that he found Jesus and wanted to work for free but as for me and nuku we want money!

one day Lapa came up and said as i was working on a 40."you know Sam sometime you just gotta work for love"
 a few hours later he got some money and pay his son and I.

Those words never left me...they stuck for 7 yrs now they still close to my heart even though I rejected that thought back then.

you know what happen? Lapa planted seeds,seeds that he didn't see grow up and flourish.but non the less he still planted seeds. months down the road Nuku would get called back and I would go with him sometimes just to go and work a wall.I loved Stone walls it was my passion.they are giant puzzles,heavy ones to.but they allow us to be creative.
I came to a realization that there was 2 people groups i would not charge money to build there walls.1st was a church and 2nd was family...Nuku and I did a job for my family.I told Nuku he didn't have to because they couldn't pay him...but just as your best friends are you can tell them no all day long and early in the morning when your just getting the day started they come rolling up with hammer swinging till the sun goes down...the Family job was the last we ever did together. because God had moved me to another in Texas.One thing still stands though...

Sometimes you just gotta work for Love!

the mission field does not fact you pay to go. my former co workers at my last job think this is insane and that I'm not to smart..
I don't care.working for love makes me the most happiest!
I'm so tired of living a life that focuses on me and getting me things that really mean nothing...its just stuff.

an old boss said."you would rather have a lot of money and be happy,then be poor with no money and be happy"

really? that's so backwards to me i cant even begin to tell ya...

Nah I'd rather give my life away and be happy! either overseas,right down the road or in our own neighborhoods,help the Orphans or feeding and making the poor feel like they are somebody again...bring life and speaking word of encouragement to lift up people is the way I choose to live the rest of my life.even if that means one day i'll be on the streets houseless to...been there twice a third time can't hurt...
Luke 12:22-34 Jesus say's Do not worry about your life,what you will eat or what u will drink nor what you will wear. is there not more to life then food and clothing?
what by worrying can add a cubit to your life.He goes on to say at the end. "for where your treasure is,there your heart will be also"(read it for your self)

Luke 9:57 Now it happened as they journeyed on the road, that someone said to Him, "Lord, I will follow You wherever You go." 58 And Jesus said to him, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head." 59 Then He said to another, "Follow Me." But he said, "Lord, let me first go and bury my father." 60 Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and preach the kingdom of God." 61 And another also said, "Lord, I will follow You, but let me first go and bid them farewell who are at my house." 62 But Jesus said to him, "No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God."

yea there's a cost to....(ive been counting the cost and He's been showing more of what it will cost during each new trip...and it may be tough but I know it will be worth it)

 weekend of work.then in 3weeks Uganda,come home for a few day then off to summer camp followed by back to Guatemala in july and probably again in Aug.and Oct. but will see. many trips no funds this may look impossible but with God all things are possible!

Sunday, April 29, 2012

a different way

how could u take a story in the making for 3 1/2 years and just narrow it done to say God gave me teeth while displaying the big and very small details in the adventure its ups and downs...Sure I could have just said God is good and He alone provided me with teeth.
really though where's the fun in that!

But I  just cant bring myself to tell it that when it does get shared it must be shared in all its fullness. for every part is Him all involved in the business of changing hearts and blessing people along the way.

Changing hearts is the way i stated it to a friend not to long ago.I was sharing more of this story to him as new thing were happening and "it was never about getting teeth,It about Him changing hearts in the process of this adventure"

Part 3

Tuesday morning 11 am in the fall of 2010 we go to meet doctor Schow still with the old plan in mind we enter the work area where this 6ft gentleman wearing a white dentist coat walks in and say are you Samuel? yes i am.
well hello its good to meet you my name is Dr Schow..Mind if i take a look? open wide as he looks and pokes around to see what he finds He starts to poke at my lower jaw and say does that hurt?
ah no I said,he said are you sure as if i was lying that it didn't hurt. 
Nope i said.
huh well that's odd he said quietly under his breath,are you taking any medicines for pain of any kind? 
No i replied.
 OK well lets talk about what we can do for you.
My sister brought up the old plan and i agreed but Dr. Schow said that was a good plan but this time its gonna take longer,its gonna be more expensive but i believe its gonna work out should you want to continue this. yes i said will continue on.Good he said well here what I'm thinking

you'll need the jaw surgery and that's no problem I can do that with ease.
 the more though area is where to do it?
we said the last time they were going to do it in Baylor medical.he said yes and that could possibly happen but i wanna avoid keeping him in there hospital rooms it will not be cheap.I'm thinking we can use the facilities here in the dentist area to save on cost of use the other facilities and either then transfer him to a room for a day or 2 to monitor his situation or keep him here over night..let me work that out and will get back to after the surgery and after you healed you'll come back in to set the implants and my good friend Dr.Gonzales will be making your teeth.(at that time i did not realize he was the same doctor in the old plan making the fact i don't recall even seeing him..maybe i did but who knows there where a hand full of them there at that time)

so let me arrange for you to meet with him and I'll be there to then we can go from there.Dr Schow then tells me again its gonna take longer, cost more but it will all work out..first i would like for you to come in for a small surgery earlier when i was looking in your mouth I noticed on the lower jaw u have jaw bone sticking out of the gums,I would like to grind that back down under the gums for you...You should be in tremendous amounts of pain.but why you are not is beyond if you'll let me.Yes i said yes u we made my first appointment and I came in for that surgery it was quick and he prescribed some pain killers.

(I know why it didn't hurt.its the same reason that when i had infected teeth for many years the infect never got down in my heart or traveled up into my brain.both of which could of killed me.
Its because He has been holding it back.) (that may sound silly but its what i believe so that my story and im sticking to

a couple days after i stopped using the pain killer it didn't hurt and so i didn't feel like taking something not needed. we went back to Baylor a week later as he said open wide and began to look he made a few snips cutting away extra stitches that didn't dissolve in time.He said I wish all of my patients healed like you Samuel. a little puzzled i said huh,then he said well you healed up fast then the stitches had time to dissolve  and its looking fantastic. so I'll see you in a few months and we will be begin to plan..Thank you I said and we were on our way. a few weeks later we meet with Dr Gonzales and this time it wasn't just my sister or just my Aunt Betty it was both of them and uncle mike came to.the whole core support team. Aunt Betty came a number of time since this whole thing started but today it was like team Kainoa packed inside the dentist office.each one waiting to see what is going to happen next.
Dr.Gonzales and his assistant Dr Leilani walks in and doctor Schow came later/we all begin discussing the details..(so one thing about me i don't exactly pay attention to details and every word that is said so i get the big picture in the simplest of terms) everyone else in this group hears details. So the plan was going to be have Doctor Schow come in and he will break the jaw and push it back 1/2inch thus making it possible for both top and bottom teeth to line up,(Ouch break my jaw)
I remember them saying we needed 10k to start this and that Dr.Schow would be doing it the Baylor facilities so it will cut the cost and they would make me an out patient then after all the healing like a 1yr or 2 then we would go back in and set all the implants wait to heal then set the actual teeth and your done.this way will cost more and take longer but we will make it work.My doctors were very confident that everything would work out great.and I was like great its going to take even matter what is a few more years of waiting..
A few months later My sister and I went back in to tell Doctor Schow that we had gotten the 10k needed and was ready to start,We had about 3k saved up when my Uncle P gave to me a check for 7k.Thank You Jesus for providing this cost.

Doctor Schow said great but first we want to trying something,well Dr.Gonzales wants to try something.
Dr.G steps in the room and says I want to explore all of the options first before we go and break your jaw.Let me take an impression of your mouth and lets take some x-rays today.

My 2 doctors work really well together both allowing them to try new things instead of one power tripping on the other and saying look it going to be done this way. Doctor Schow was older and has tremendous influence in Baylor but still he was like OK lets try this your way first.
So we did a little bit that day.every time we came in for an appointment and the work they did was always free.we had already been to a number of appointments and was now about to be doubled even tripled the amount I found my self spending a lot of time at Baylor.

Dr.Gonzales was building a case for his computer to make a 3-D model of my entire face,jaw and head.showing how implants would fit in and what angles to drill them into. since he noticed that I have a cleft pallet he know that the bones structure would be different then normal people. by doing it this way he could see if implants were even a possibility.because had they broke the jaw and it doesn't work could put it back together like it was.
so with the model complete they were able to build me a set of temporary dentures for a picture they needed. when they were complete they called me back in to fit them and take the picture.

it seems they did a lot of work to take one picture.and they did but at the end of it Dr.Gonzales had a change of heart and said here i want u to have these dentures and start to wear them so that u get used to having something in your mouth.
they are just for looks you wont be able to eat with em.
(yes i did try to eat with them right when i got em! I remember going to meet a friend for lunch i had orange chicken...didn't work out so well..LOL)

we I got brought back in a week later to see if the fit was still good.seeing that it was They said that a plan with all the numbers is being drawn up and sent to my house.
I went back one more time to see if they could smooth out the upper denture because it would cut me every time i put it in or took it they did and the first time was good,the second shave it got shaved to much and no matter how much fixident i put on it just wouldn't hold.

a week later this came in

 I showed this to my sister and be came both excited and kinda worried because I didn't have that kind of money nor did i have a job that could pay for it.
about the beginning of the year  Matthew 6:25 drop into my spirit,not knowing what it said i quickly found my Bible and looked it up.
It says do not worry about your life what you will eat or drink,nor about your body what you will have to wear for the birds of the air do not worrying about what they will eat or the flowers of which they will worrying how can that add a cubit stature to your life.

(Cubit In the Greek is the word Pechys -  measure of length,time of hour
Stature in the Greek is the word Helikia - Life, time in life, age
So by worrying when can not bring back the time lost when we worry about thing)

 Therefore do not worry what you shall eat or what you shall drink or what you will wear. for you heavenly Father know of these things you need and will provide for you.

(open your bible and see what Matthew 6:25-34 says for your self.)

everyday from that first day and sometimes 2 or 3 times a day.this verse would come up and so every time i would look it up and read it. then one day my sister had called Baylor to make sure she understood then contract right.they told her how it was and she called me quickly.She said that maybe it would be better if we tried "Plan B"
 plan B what the flip is plan B i thought.
she goes on to say that maybe it would be better if we took the money we had and used it to get some really nice dentures and that Uncle peter agreed to this...
right as she began to speak after she said plan B.
it welled up in my spirit and I knew why He had been giving me Matt 6:25 everyday.a few days before this i was sitting in Seven(church on Tues nights at 7pm for 18-30somthing check it out at
when the pastor began to speak on when God gives u a word to stand on..This had been happening to me but i had not realized it.
 so as she kept going on about how we can do this.because its 19K to start not 15K like we had thought,then after the first part of the surgery and after the healing well have 8-9months to come up with the other 25K.

Yes this looks seemingly impossible.... it could be for most low income families.we had 10K trying to get 5 more to start which really was 9 more.then 25 within 8-9 months after surgery...Well I might of folded when she said let go for plan B but I said there is no plan B.God gave me a word.... 
it is Matt6:25 Do Not Worry.everyday this word comes to mind and everyday i read it.I know now why its been coming to me sister.We are not supposed to worry about this.all we are required to do is believe in Him and believe He can.
so imma keep moving forward with His plan....
remember!!! we have done nothing to get us this far except believe so why not keep believing that He will finish His plan!

she tried to argue it a bit but i wasn't about to budge my mind was made up it was this way or no way.besides i didn't need teeth anyways i was perfectly fine the way it was.finally she agreed to walk it out since i was so sure that He gave me this word to stand on.She handed me the papers to sign and so We signed them..upon signing them its a contract saying that we will pay x amount when it is due and that we have all the money to do this..
all i can say is Faith and Trust in Him because we do not have it in our hands yet.but its coming and will be there on time.

that's what we did and we haven't yet try to fund-raise or do anything that I thought could help God come up with this the months rolled by i was less focused on the teeth and more focused on how i could serve Him. it was about Thanksgiving day and there i sat at my sisters house when i thought came across don't forget to call your Uncle P...yep you guessed it i forgot :-(  and the next day my sisters ask did you call your uncle? No i forgot.Well you should call him today!
OK OK so i did and we talked for awhile about whatever then he asked about the progress of the teeth and we talked about all the things that was going on and that we were in the waiting process of acquiring 9 thousand dollars.
  my poor uncle had spilled the beans on himself by saying well if i had know the importance of how soon you really need the money i would not have waited so long.
So here's what I'm going to do I was going to send you a check for 10K for your birthday(which was a month away on 12/26) to put directly into but seeing that u need it now I will drop the check in the mail on Monday morning.
This blew my mind I didn't know what to say or how to react..I said thank you he said your worth how you have grown since u first moved to uncle went on to saying that he knew if he could just get me off that island and away from everything that was pulling me down.that maybe just maybe I'd snap out of it and come home.(come home like the prodigal) Yes Jesus welcomed me with arms wide open and brought me back to the Father.

so i get this check and right as i do i say to my sister so how much is this check Uncle P is giving me.she wouldn't answer all she said how do u know about that? my whole family knew about this check except me.but now i knew because he told me and i was holding on to it.So i said well how ever much it was its cool cause he sent me a check for 10k.all of there jaws dropped.what they said they was supposed to be a gift...
 it is still a gift i said just earlier then what was expected. so we dropped it into the account and gave Baylor a call.I knew because of the lateness in the year nothing was going to be done and that we would have to wait until January of 2012. sure enough they called and we made appointments for the second week of January.

God is so good and I'm blessed beyond measure 

Part 4 of this never ending story coming soon

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Out with the Old

Part 2

After surgery they had removed all of my teeth and sent us home.for the first week i don't remember eating much I had stitches all the way across from left to right both upper and lower jaws.yup all gums. talk about different I just went from 28yrs mouth to grandpa mouth screaming "where"s my false teeth!!!" in a matter of a few hours...yea it was great and no it didn't hurt.they gave me drugs that I only took for 2 days then didn't need em.
My sister and I return to Baylor for a check up to get the extra stitches that did not dissolve out and to see when we could schedule are next appointments everything was great things are now moving along.
The next few months I ate soup all kinds of soup,soup and bread.then upgraded to Saimin then it was noodle for months all along the way trying different solid foods.Then it was time to go back to Baylor,it had only been a month maybe before we went back in,it was not good in fact the news was shocking.the Doctors began to tells us that everything just came to a stopping point and that we would have to wait until June/July before we can continue.I remember they said we should go down to the office and talk to a guy who was in charge of Baylor's Financial department. I do not remember this guys name but his face I've not forgotten. 

when we enter his office everything was really dark all the blinds were shut the lights were not all on and the atmosphere was heavy.My sister began to talk with this guy and ask question about when and what can be done about my case.I remembered him saying look I don't know,i just don't know how or when we will be able to get to your brothers case.Obama cut off Baylor's Budget money. We have no money coming in,there not enough money left now and even if some kind of funding came in here's the other problem your brother has 6 people in front of him so there's nothing we can do.sorry! now if you please I am very busy.So he kicked us out of his office.
The whole time i was in there I heard what he said but was still smiling maybe because i thought this sounded so funny to me.Marilynn says "sorry brother","why are you smiling?"they just said it was hopeless and impossible"....
Sometime between walking in to the heaviness of that office,hearing bad news and listening to what my sister just said.I had made a decision and stated that Nothing is Impossible for God and that He could make way...I don't know how to explain it but I just believed with my whole heart that what we see is impossible, for God nothing is Impossible and that with Him ALL things are Possible...
all my trust,faith,hope and just pure belief that He could make away kicked in.
From the time all this started up to that point I had went from being saved and not caring to listening to the preacher preach and teach the word of start becoming more interesting to me. we left the medical office.not sure how my sister felt in all this but I was just gonna stand on what I believe could happen.
Many months went by and the belief never faded in fact it got stronger and stronger.unlike before when hope would come and go come and go.this was very different.this hope never left it stayed and got stronger as my gums got more stronger, we went back in June to see if anything changed but nothing had happened. more months rolled by more growing spiritually and focusing less on the fact I had no teeth.

(The hardest part of having no teeth is not eating.its not smiling or laughing the hardest part for me was talking! i thought i sounded ridiculous to pronounce S or C was difficult because I thought I sounded like some gay guy when they try to talk like women..u know what I'm talking about u have friend who make fun of this way of talking..anyways EVERYTHING has a S or a C in it..I was working at Home Depot at the time so I had to talk to people.)

before we knew it was already November of 2009.  I was traveling to church one weds night,it was raining and i stopped at a stop light.the whole time i was here I had no friends and so sitting there I simply ask God OK so if I'm to stay here then could i have at least 1 or 2 good godly friends kinda like the person singing on this CD. 
 up to that point everyone i knew was my sister or brother in law's friends.well I did happen to make 40 friends in 2 weekends at Pathways but we all live so far apart.i need the kind of friends i could hang with daily or weekly.

(I love and thank God for all my friend in class 263)(these people help me through the hardest of hard times and made me feel like i was worth something.they had loved me and didn't care what i had walked threw to get to that point.they like me for me! and I love them for who they are)
so it was end of March beginning of April 2010,i believe that God had taken are tiny family and transported them to a new church home. Although I came by myself at first,its true The Lord will take the lonely and broken hearted and set them in large families. 

God sets the solitary in families;He brings out those who are bound into prosperity;But the rebellious dwell in dry land.Psalm 68:6 NKJV

A new church home with more to learn more to get involved with and just more more more is better.
at the very beginning of hearing about the $26K job my sister Marilynn had started a non-profit called it was designed to help me raise the funds we needed for this project.because even with the now extremely low price my uncle still didn't want to help.many friend from Pathways and other people had donated money to this project we had $3,500. in savings,we had business cards that we would hand out...OK just because my sister is probably going to read this and for the record I did not pass to many of them out she and my aunt gave them away.i gave maybe 1 or 2.
anyhow i started to pass some out to people i met at church not that i thought anyone would care or anything but just so that when my sister asked "did you give them a card?" i would have to lie and say yes!

little did i know it The Lord had put me in this new church for much greater purpose and a new direction i was to walk. started to get involved with a ministry Called Seven it was from 18-29 i had just turned 30 but the pastor said he wasn't gonna start carding people at the door.the way Seven is designed and Gateway church my life began to change more rapidly,getting involved with activities,meet one guy named Micah Davis which opened up a can of worms and lead me to having over 70 friends.(prayer answered thought i only wanted 1 or 2 God Blessed me with above and beyond.that number still grows, I had heard of an organization called (check them out) almost every thing about gateway was new for me.though I had been raised in church and ran away only to come back like the prodigal,this seemed to be amazing that there was  global ministries. 
Things i would of never thought or dreamed of had i stayed in small town church 
(I'm not knocking the small town church still love all y'all at CIWC) 
RU4children opened my eyes to things I've never seen before both in and around the world as well as looking threw and reading the bible for myself to see what Jesus said about things.My heart turn towards this direction, orphans thousand upon thousands of them got to bed hungry every i got involved with what i could do.went to a concert Kari Jobe did at a Methodist church and there i noticed that it was a lot bigger then just this one org. but there where many orgs trying to save the orphans of this world.My heart stirred and began stirring.There came a point where i was so convinced that I did not need teeth. didn't need them to smile or to be happy,didn't need them to make friends or talk to people and I definitely didn't need them to hearts desire was if only I had access to the money in our non profit I would give it to RU4 because those kids need it a whole lot more then I do.(i still feel that way) but my sister was smart and she is the only one who has access to the funds. I began to share my heart with her more and more in this area as I began to fall in love with Jesus more and more and wanted nothing but to help His kids around the world.

during the starting time at gateway my sister had been passing out cards and this one card landed in the hands of her own dentist. he had looked at the website and called  Marilynn to see at what stage we were on with the teeth,said told him that nothing is moving right now that right after they pulled my teeth it stopped. 
He told her that he would take a look into it,he worked with or on the board at Baylor.for a while He and my sister had been discussing thing of which i knew nothing about. then days before a turning point in this journey Marilynn told me of this doctor who heard of my case and began to fight for us.He is fighting because when he looked into it Baylor had thrown our case out saying that we missed an appointment.but he questioned that and said why would someone like me miss an appointment for something so important as this? so he fights for us. 
(we never did have an appointment the last thing the said was keep calling but don't get your hopes up) 
This was amazing news because we had know idea what was going on with it,though I still believed God would and could i just never focused on it and waited for Him to bring the how...

days later Marilynn gets a call from that same doctor,He told her that there's not a lot of hope,though he was going to continue to fight for our case,..she hangs up the phone and the very moment she hung up,like instantly my phone rang...Hello i said,the man on the other side said Hello is this Samuel Kauhane? Yes i said its Kainoa I go by my middle name Kainoa but Samuel is fine.He said very well then name is Dr Schow from Baylor medical,I would like to meet with you this Tuesday at 11 am if that is OK with you? can you make it? Yes! Yes absolutely i said.Alright Great I will see you soon. yes! yes thank you thank you Sir,we then hung up.

Thank You Thank You Jesus!!! about an hour later my sister said who was that on the phone? I said it was a Dr. from Baylor setting up an appointment for Tues.My sister stopped what she was doing and said What? so i began to repeat.(I had known a little of what my sister and her dentist were talking about so I thought he hooked it up and this was all going as planed.) Marilynn said come here for a minute so a came and she started to tell me about the phone call she had with the dentist.he said there wasn't much he could do and not a lot of hope left. then I said what the Dr.Schow at Baylor had told me... 
(it was about the end of summer when this happened) 

we both stood on awe as we realized that this was a divine appointment.that this was a God thing! hands down this is now His plan and we are thankful.

When we had tried all that we could,there was so many hands in our plan that even though i believed He would make away.any one of those hands could of said it wasn't because of God you have teeth but because of me. or me. or this or that person.Though i would have still said its all because of God. Our plans FAILED epically!

He started to reveal His plan.

back when i was in a small church all i could say every time i prayed was thank You.prayers and gratefulness and thanksgiving.I had asked a bishop about this and he said its OK you are still baby i have been doing this for 30+ yrs your prayers will get better.then The Lord moved me to gateway were i learned that having a heart of gratefulness is not a bad thing in fact it is encouraged. 

 Psalm 100:4 Enter His gates with thanksgiving,and into His courts with praise. Be thankful to Him,and bless His name.
 still to this day in worship or where ever its always a thank You thank You thank You. at that point it was just the new start I was so thankful its all i knew to say.
Out with our old plan in with His new. Like i said our impossible is His possible and all I did was believe He could....
to be continued